Now Playing: it all falls down
wow this week is going by really really fast but still i have had so much effin stuff go so effing work this week to it is like all of the stuff in my life is juss totally going all wrong and theres nothing that i can do about it. i totally need to vent but there is no one that i can trust enough to tell wuts wrong, i keep all this anger pinned up inside of me and it feels like i am bout to explode with frustration, anger, and everything else that comes with this stuff. today i felt like blowing my brains out juss to stop the pain that im going through theres like nothing that i can do about it and no one can come and help me either i wish this world and all the people on it would juss drop dead and go to hell im really mad and then to top it off one of my friends well at least i think that shes still my friend the friendship sort of gpt screwed up juss because of something stupid that happened and now we dont even talk man this juss sucks life sucks
the lonly and depressed
jackie

hey
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: best i ever had
hey guys! i havent written on here in like forever and i miss typing my feelings out. today is i think about one of the most sadest days of my life and i did everything i could to change it to. i had orientation today and thay went well i think that i am really really gonna like this new job although i miss some of my friends back at the cafe i guess that i will still get to see them in school and on weekends so i guess that i can live with that but i dunno last weekend was the most horrible ever i was so depressed and i think that i still am i dunno wuts wrong i just dont feel happy any more i mean when im away from the dorm i feel happy but i dont no something about this dorm is so depressing i am trying to surround myself with friends to see if that helps but so far its not i am juss trying to keep a smile on my face and be happy for everyone around me but on the inside i feel like crape
well its lights out so i guess that i have to go, latly trisha has been sleeping in my room and thats kewl i have someone to talk to but i juss dont feel like i can trust anyone enough to tell them wuts wrong
i think that i need some serious help

jackie

wazz up~!!~
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: click five
hey guys i am kinda mad at my like two of my friends and i have a good reason to be i mean they are like totally changing and treating me like trash and i hate it. i juss got back from mall trip it was really fun i got to hang out with my friends and talk like all day i miss emily and i hope she is coming back i still dont have any friends on tripod except for two and i really want more cause thats juss kewl i am kinda missing home but only for the friends i cant wait to see them agian well i juss that thats enough for right now i think i'm gonna go to center campus
talk to ya'll lata
jackie

hey guys!
Mood:  special
Now Playing: fall out boy
hey guys i think i have finally got this whole blog thing down cause i tryed with my other site on here and i totally screwed it up! tgif it has been a really long week and all i wanna do is sleep. i have so effin much to do this weekend and i am really gonna miss my friend call me trish!
well i gota lota stuff to do
c ya
jackie